How do you navigate a mad world?
On divine madness and finding the higher order
Lately, I’ve felt like the ground beneath me has shifted. This explains why I’ve taken a bit of a hiatus on writing here.
You might also say the ground within me has shifted. Not in a negative way, even though it’s been disorienting at first.
I’ve felt it in virtually every area of my life. I need more quiet than usual. The drive and intensity I normally bring to my work has changed texture. It’s felt like it slowed down.
That was frustrating at first. You know, I kind of like being intense. That’s probably the Aries sun in me.
But how I could describe what happened is this…
It’s like the engine of your car has changed. It runs on cleaner fuel now, something more refined, but you haven’t caught up to it yet. Can you relate?
You’re still pulling into the station trying to fill the tank with gasoline. And it’s not just that the fuel doesn’t work anymore. It’s that the more you force it, the worse the engine runs.
I noticed it most recently while building something new for my community. A deeper program. A higher level of commitment for the paradigm shifters who gravitate around my work. Everything in me knew it was the right thing to create. And still, I froze.
I started overthinking every detail. Wanting the structure to be perfect before I let anyone see it. Wanting the language to be airtight. Wanting to have every answer before someone could ask a question I hadn’t prepared for.
I recognized the pattern immediately. At first I only thought it was the impostor dressing up as high standards.
Then I started realized that there was an intuitive intervention going on.
As if my deeper inner wisdom was saying: “this is not the energy that needs to be infused in this offering.”
Deep down I already knew and felt it, but I couldn’t find a way to translate it into how I create because it still feels counterintuitive.
Think about it as flying a plane while you are building it. That feels somewhat mad. Yet it feels like this is what these times demand.
I know this. And still, the old way had its hands on the wheel. Still trying to earn the right to be seen by being flawless first.
Some days it feels like learning how to walk on no ground.
I’m sharing this not because I’ve resolved it fully. It’s still a work in progress. I am just inviting you in my process. I’m also sharing it because this is the part that we often don’t name. When you are going through a relationship shift with the way you create.
I think this is a direct consequence of the world we currently live in.
This is what’s actually happening beneath the noise of the world… not just out there, but in here. In your body too. The way you engage your entire life, your craft and even your relationships, wants to completely change.
Here is a poem that inspired this piece of writing…
Divine Madness | theia mania
How do you navigate a mad world? Well, you let it drive you mad. Madly in love with the things that make you feel more alive. Madly in love with the parts of you the old world told you to reject. Madly devoted to keeping your heart open, especially when you feel like it’s about to break. Madly committed to unleashing your true voice in the places where you once kept it muted. Madly willing to be misunderstood by everyone who needs you to stay the same. You let it break apart the identities that kept you tied to the old world. You let it burn through every story you told yourself just to feel safe. And you stand in the ashes of your former self… grieving and yet resolved. Not to go back, but to become the bridge. That’s the kind of divine madness these times need.
There’s a reason the world feels mad right now.
I am not using the word mad as in angry, even though there’s plenty of that. Mad as in disoriented. Like the rules you spent decades learning were rewritten while you were asleep, and now you’re expected to function in a game you no longer understand.
Do you feel it?
I think most people feel this but they struggle to name it.
Instead, they do what we often do when the ground disappears. We grip tighter to old identities, old certainties, old ways of making sense of a world that no longer operates on those terms.
We scroll for answers in places that are designed to confuse us more. We wait for someone to tell us what’s happening so that we don’t have to feel the full weight of not knowing.
And the ones who are actually willing to change, shed skins, question how we’ve always done things, and experiment, might be perceived as the most unstable from the outside.
That’s the trap.
Because what looks like madness from the perspective of old paradigms, might actually the first honest response to a world in transition.
Sometimes the “mad” one isn’t the person falling apart. It’s the person who’s stopped pretending the old structure still holds.
The ancient Greeks had a term for this: theia mania. Divine madness.
This is not to be confused with psychosis, recklessness, or the collapse of reason.
It was understood as a state of being overtaken by something greater than your rational mind could contain. A kind of sacred disruption that shattered the old frame of perception. A natural part of your evolutionary process designed to free you from the smallness of what you thought you knew.
Plato described it as a gift from the gods. The philosopher’s madness. The lover’s madness. The prophet’s madness. The poet’s madness. Each one a different doorway into a truth that the sober, well-adjusted mind could never access on its own.
I think we’ve lost that understanding. We’ve pathologized the very disruption that precedes every meaningful transformation. And in doing so, we’ve locked ourselves inside a version of “normal” that was never designed to hold the fullness of what we are.
Divine madness is not the absence of order. It is the arrival of a higher order. One that only becomes visible when you stop clinging to the old one.
I think this mad world, is an invitation in disguise to become divinely mad. To let your higher knowing hold the wheel especially when you do not understand.
This is what I mean when I say these times need divine madness. Making peace with being seen as a fool by the old world, if that’s what it takes to honor your deepest truth.
To be clear, I am not talking about chaos, destruction just for the sake of it, or the performative rebellion of burning things down because you’re angry at the world.
I mean the willingness to let the old templates die. The willingness to feel the full disorientation of being between worlds, without numbing, without rushing, and without pretending you’ve arrived somewhere you haven’t.
I mean the willingness to be in the construction site of your own becoming and let people see you there... Dusty, unfinished, and building something you believe in before you can prove it works.
I believe this is what these times demand.
The question now is how does this apply to all the areas of your life? How does this apply to how you create and to how you relate? How does this apply to your relationship to yourself?
For me, it means that I will experiment a lot more. A bit like a mad scientist. Sometimes I will do it out loud.
The world doesn’t need more people clinging to the old ground.
It needs people willing to walk on no ground, and to keep walking until the new one forms beneath their feet.
That’s divine madness.
And it might be the sanest thing you ever do during these times.
Do you agree?
Please leave your thoughts below.
In gratitude and reverence,
- Xavier




Oh my god, this describes what I am going through so exactly. Even the part around building something and overthinking it. And yes, I too don't feel the dust has settled. It's like I opened a new door, and now everything from the old door doesn't quite fit anymore, but the energy of the new door is still totally fuzzy. .... the fuel analogy is so right on. Yes, letting them see me there in the fuzziness. THANK YOU as always you just pinpoint it, Xavier... even in the madness. Sending so much gratitude 💜
This is so good.