All of these resonate with me to some degree with alienation and loss at the top. I’ve been experiencing major transformation and loss along the way lately with almost everyone in my life. Much of it is the division in society and black and white thinking. I’ve been dimming my light and I’m ready to it shine bright! ✨✨✨
Just got blasted open again today, thank you for this 🙏 I’m a firm believer that you can only take people as far as you’ve gone & I feel that very much about you right now. You’ve definitely helped alchemize so much within me in a very short 2 day span. Today, I found the moment of the death of me & my willingness to freely express my joy. I experienced a very scary physical argument between my brother & dad. From there, I found “The Nothings.” Previously presented to me as “The Screaming Ones.” The Nothings are almost like white walkers. Dead, soulless, abandoned, long forgotten, long repressed parts of me. Usually, parts of me are still available for new life & these were seemingly not. And very unforgiving. After much repenting & sobbing, I surrendered. And soon I saw them walking in droves through a golden pasture toward the sun. The graveyard was transformed to little sprouting flowers and grass. I can begin expressing these parts of me safely with my 12 year old daughter. If I allow myself to embody this trait fully, my life would change by being Lead By Light, not addiction. Free. Embodied Light -no pun intended :)
What this part wants to offer me is that I’ve already persecuted & alienated myself more than anyone possibly ever could. It wants to offer me life after death.
I always felt and feel persecuted, and am still attracting that energy into my life. This I think stems from not being able to express my authentic self without harsh judgement as a teenager and young girl. I even have recurring dreams of being executed for something I didn't do.
Xavier, I am still working through this, I started in Feb and only finished Day 2 today. And I have immense gratitude for you today, it's been difficult to acknowledge how much fear still has a hold on me. I have had deep revelations and downloads just after the first 2 days. Thank you for not removing the content, or putting a deadline on when to watch this. Thank you again!
Once again invaluable. I love the idea of addiction to safety - I’ve spent a lot of my life feeling incredibly unsafe, however there is a part of me trying to cling to a feeling of safety in a very twisted way and is perpetuating the feeling of unsafety long after the situations have ended. A new level of understanding and compassion for these parts has been unlocked 🌈
We've been on the same wavelength over a year. I was just angry journaling about all the ways I've repressed myself & then found this. Enough dimming, hiding, shrinking, running, acting small - I am going to shine, act, speak loudly & take space!!
Thank you for this as it resonates with me deeply; outlined the fears I need to overcome. 😊 Going to really lean in and reflect on the ways these fears keep my power repressed.
"The Fear of Humiliation stems from an addiction to praise and validation"
- I dont agree.
For me it is reversed: I would say in my case that - if you like an addiction - to praise and validation stems from experienced humiliation back then.
For me present day fear of humiliation stems from confusing today with back then, when validation was a core need and was not provided sufficiently. And by confusing these two points in time an "addiction to praise and validation" in the present might arise. Back then it was not an addiction, it was a need. A birthright.
I am a little sensitive here because I have a giant Fear of Humiliation Dragon.
All of these resonate with me to some degree with alienation and loss at the top. I’ve been experiencing major transformation and loss along the way lately with almost everyone in my life. Much of it is the division in society and black and white thinking. I’ve been dimming my light and I’m ready to it shine bright! ✨✨✨
Just got blasted open again today, thank you for this 🙏 I’m a firm believer that you can only take people as far as you’ve gone & I feel that very much about you right now. You’ve definitely helped alchemize so much within me in a very short 2 day span. Today, I found the moment of the death of me & my willingness to freely express my joy. I experienced a very scary physical argument between my brother & dad. From there, I found “The Nothings.” Previously presented to me as “The Screaming Ones.” The Nothings are almost like white walkers. Dead, soulless, abandoned, long forgotten, long repressed parts of me. Usually, parts of me are still available for new life & these were seemingly not. And very unforgiving. After much repenting & sobbing, I surrendered. And soon I saw them walking in droves through a golden pasture toward the sun. The graveyard was transformed to little sprouting flowers and grass. I can begin expressing these parts of me safely with my 12 year old daughter. If I allow myself to embody this trait fully, my life would change by being Lead By Light, not addiction. Free. Embodied Light -no pun intended :)
What this part wants to offer me is that I’ve already persecuted & alienated myself more than anyone possibly ever could. It wants to offer me life after death.
I always felt and feel persecuted, and am still attracting that energy into my life. This I think stems from not being able to express my authentic self without harsh judgement as a teenager and young girl. I even have recurring dreams of being executed for something I didn't do.
Thank you for this teaching, Xavier. What a gift!
I can really relate to the five fears.
Fear of loss! You're a master of deep dives into Self and I love your guidance.
I appreciate 🙏
🙏🏻😄 as do I 🙏🏻
I feel elements of every one of these fears, and I'm so ready to let them all go. Looking forward to digging in to the journaling prompts. Thank you!
Glad it speaks to you
So glad I joined your challenge! This is hitting home ❤️
I'm glad you're here and that this resonates ❣️
You are right, I'm still holding on to that fear and that's why I'm still stuck
Xavier, I am still working through this, I started in Feb and only finished Day 2 today. And I have immense gratitude for you today, it's been difficult to acknowledge how much fear still has a hold on me. I have had deep revelations and downloads just after the first 2 days. Thank you for not removing the content, or putting a deadline on when to watch this. Thank you again!
Once again invaluable. I love the idea of addiction to safety - I’ve spent a lot of my life feeling incredibly unsafe, however there is a part of me trying to cling to a feeling of safety in a very twisted way and is perpetuating the feeling of unsafety long after the situations have ended. A new level of understanding and compassion for these parts has been unlocked 🌈
We've been on the same wavelength over a year. I was just angry journaling about all the ways I've repressed myself & then found this. Enough dimming, hiding, shrinking, running, acting small - I am going to shine, act, speak loudly & take space!!
thank you so much for this
Thank you for this as it resonates with me deeply; outlined the fears I need to overcome. 😊 Going to really lean in and reflect on the ways these fears keep my power repressed.
"The Fear of Humiliation stems from an addiction to praise and validation"
- I dont agree.
For me it is reversed: I would say in my case that - if you like an addiction - to praise and validation stems from experienced humiliation back then.
For me present day fear of humiliation stems from confusing today with back then, when validation was a core need and was not provided sufficiently. And by confusing these two points in time an "addiction to praise and validation" in the present might arise. Back then it was not an addiction, it was a need. A birthright.
I am a little sensitive here because I have a giant Fear of Humiliation Dragon.